I think Valentines day is a big waste and I seriously wonder why anyone bothers with it. The media created the stupid holiday to make more money. Wake up world! If there was no halmark there would be no valentine waiting for you at home, car, or any other "cutesy" place your significant other thought of for your pleasure. Okay, I will calm down and as you have probably figured out part of this outburst is coming from my bitterness. I have never had a valentine and I have watched my crush for the past three years with his girlfriend. Yes, I said three years! I know I am pathetic and don't you dare look at me like that. It's not like I have let it stop me from having other relationships and enjoying them. I just can't stop my feelings for the guy and I know he flirts back, because I am not the only one who notices it. He has me wondering sometimes if he actually returns the feelings. I try not to get my hopes up, because I know I am just the good friend who happens to be a girl. I have never had the heart to tell him my feelings though and thats partly because of something he said our sophomore year. I told him that I liked this guy and it wasn't a total lie, because (yay me) I was kind of crushing on another guy who was taken(this one slightly worst considering he was taken by a guy). Anyways I said that he was with someone and asked if I should tell him how I feel. At first he told me yes, but then quikly changed it to no if it was a long relationship. I am doomed to eternity as the friend! But this year I decided with some good council from a friend to do something about these feelings. I wrote a letter containing my feelings for him and dated it for the last day of school when I pland to give it to him. Also the sly little fox that I am, gave him a valentine today. Okay I gave all of my friends one, but hey its a step. He took it without saying a word, but on the way out of class I saw something. He dropped it in the process of getting his stuff together, but to my surprise he actually picked up and stashed it in his pocket. I know that I am probably over analyzing things, but please just leave me to think it actually meant that there a small something between us. Anyways I started this blog off complaining about valentines day like most other bitter, boyfriendless girls carry on about and ended up telling you about my pathetic (probably non existent) love life! If you do have a valentine just ignore to my bitter and cynical behavior. Go enjoy the man you love who adores back and have a great Valentines day! Later poppets!
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Wow, being sick really takes a toll on your noggin!
I literally think I have nothing to say right now. I have been pretty sick for like a week and a half. I even missed three days of school in which I spent coughing up my lungs and watching the second season of 21 Jump street! Today I am still barking and I think it has really damaged my thinking process, because for the first time in forever I have absolutely nothing to say. Do you have any idea how much this is driving me crazy? If the flu was not enough,God, you just had to add the stupid disease of writer's block! ACK! I think I'm going to sign off, because I have no idea what else to SAY! Good day, lovelies!
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
My New Obsession!
Woot! Woot! I just starting watching 21 Jump Street, a cop show from the 80s starring Johnny Depp! It is amazing and I love it! I'm going to get the second season either tonight or tomorrow! if you have never heard of it, you need to look it up on youtube or something. I created a key earring like Penhall's and I wear all the time now! My favorite episode is where Hanson and Penhall go undercover as the Mcquaid brothers, it's hilarious. Later, Dears!
*Sigh* Prom
A most traditional and eventful night in almost every teenager's life. At first I thought I was going to be one those girls who is all "anti" prom, but they did the unthinkable. My high school actually roped me in with a them so extraordinary that even I may enjoy myself on prom night. This year's theme is none other than a Masquerade! I am so excited now and I am even making my gown, fan, and mask! Yay I found a pattern for the perfect dress online, picture to the left, and I can't wait! I'm hoping if I'm really good that my mom will buy me a pretty, old fashioned corset and shoes! I just want to have fun with my outfit and could care less about the date part. OOOOO OOOO OOOO! I want to knit a cute little scarf or shaw to go with it, of course that would mean I have to finish Oscar(heh heh). Well, I am off to see the wizard my young grass hoppers!
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
Happy Fat Tuesday!
I have decided to give up regular pop! I have been leaning off of the "can of sugar" for awhile. But I thought Fat Tuesday would help me seal the deal (I know its ingenious!). I like the idea of having to give something up for awhile. Several heroes of the past had to give things up like their lives and freedom just for a better future for us. I know my "can of sugar" is insignificant compared to the loss of the great heroes of America, of the world. But I do feel that it could be a start. Our generation has nothing to fight for and just takes advantage of certain privledges, except for a select percentage. I feel that no one is grateful the things that we possess now. I'm not saying that I want our world be overcome with hardships again. But I wish something would happen to show people the things we should be thankful for and appreciate the heroes that came before our time. This is just another thing that is always on my mind. Later, honey bunches!
Ugh, the world is filled with idiots!
Why do people feel the need to torment the very people who like to stay invisible? I mean half the time I feel like I have a target painted across my forehead or perhaps a certain aroma that attracts my "beloved" tormenters. I work my ass off to stay undetectable, but they always they weasel their way next to me. They yell, "accidently" hit me, and beaat me down until I am left with nothing of the small amount of self esteem that I have. Damn it, do people seriously have nothing better to do than destroy a life. I cannot wait to leave behind those ignorant, immature imbeciles! Well, sorry to vent my dears!
