Saint Valentin my butt!!!! *I think*

I think Valentines day is a big waste and I seriously wonder why anyone bothers with it. The media created the stupid holiday to make more money. Wake up world! If there was no halmark there would be no valentine waiting for you at home, car, or any other "cutesy" place your significant other thought of for your pleasure. Okay, I will calm down and as you have probably figured out part of this outburst is coming from my bitterness. I have never had a valentine and I have watched my crush for the past three years with his girlfriend. Yes, I said three years! I know I am pathetic and don't you dare look at me like that. It's not like I have let it stop me from having other relationships and enjoying them. I just can't stop my feelings for the guy and I know he flirts back, because I am not the only one who notices it. He has me wondering sometimes if he actually returns the feelings. I try not to get my hopes up, because I know I am just the good friend who happens to be a girl. I have never had the heart to tell him my feelings though and thats partly because of something he said our sophomore year. I told him that I liked this guy and it wasn't a total lie, because (yay me) I was kind of crushing on another guy who was taken(this one slightly worst considering he was taken by a guy). Anyways I said that he was with someone and asked if I should tell him how I feel. At first he told me yes, but then quikly changed it to no if it was a long relationship. I am doomed to eternity as the friend! But this year I decided with some good council from a friend to do something about these feelings. I wrote a letter containing my feelings for him and dated it for the last day of school when I pland to give it to him. Also the sly little fox that I am, gave him a valentine today. Okay I gave all of my friends one, but hey its a step. He took it without saying a word, but on the way out of class I saw something. He dropped it in the process of getting his stuff together, but to my surprise he actually picked up and stashed it in his pocket. I know that I am probably over analyzing things, but please just leave me to think it actually meant that there a small something between us. Anyways I started this blog off complaining about valentines day like most other bitter, boyfriendless girls carry on about and ended up telling you about my pathetic (probably non existent) love life! If you do have a valentine just ignore to my bitter and cynical behavior. Go enjoy the man you love who adores back and have a great Valentines day! Later poppets!