Reject, Refusal, Repress.

Rejection is to refuse to have, take, or recognize. Something I am very familiar with in life. I know I am not a golden child or very nice. I am sarcastic, pushy, and down right mean sometimes but I can't help it. They are defense mechanisms and its really hard to change. I have been rejected by my sister, mother, and recently the guy that I had been crushing on throughout high school. It was really hard to hear yet another person I loved/liked didn't want me. I guess I don't really blame people because I admit that I hide behind a huge wall and tend to push people away. When I realize I am getting too close I push the person away.Its something that I need to work on this year. I know this is totally cliche but I am still lost. I have know idea who I am. People are supposed to know who they are when they start life and I haven't the slightest idea. I am a nobody and if I don't try then I am doomed to be a nobody forever. Wish me luck. Heh.