Sorry, I just feel numb.

I'm numb.
I cannot feel anything.
I cannot react to anything and I most certainly cannot love.
My mind, body, and soul are malfunctioning.
I break, break, break down silently.
All the king's horses and all the king's men don't even attempt to fix me.
I am a misfit, an outcast, and a leper.

I crawl into a ball and lay on the ground.
She is not there to help me back up.
She sits at home crying.
She isn't thinking of me as she sits there solemnly.
I realized a long time ago that she brought me into this world.
But I never thought she would be my reason out of this world.
I am lost and I am alone.

Maybe this weakness makes me like her.
I have tried so hard not to turn out like her.
But its so tough and I am so weak.
My depression is draining all of my strength.
I have been watching all of it slowly go down the drain over the years.
I am almost out and I am finally caving into it.
Turning into your parents is inevitable.