Falling down the Rabbit Hole!

I always think up these brilliant commentaries on people and things I hear through out the day to tell you guys. I mean things that would appeal to your emotions making you laugh, cry, or just think. But everything is quickly forgotten with my hands on the keys and my eyes settled on the bright glow from the computer screen. Ack! Anyways moving on.... I hate when someone lets you down and I mean real low like Alice falling down the rabbit hole low. My sister has never been there for me and she frequently pops in then out of my life expecting immediate respect. I don't think so. I finally let her in a couple of years ago and she just did it to me again. Now she has decided to email me after over a year and expects that everything is okay. Now of course I am thinking not again bitch i have been your dirty, old, dollar store stepping rug for too long but do I say that. Of course not I write back to her acting completely civil and asking how the kids are because I love the kids even though I rarely get to see them anymore. :(I just act as if nothing is wrong and I have no idea why! Oh poo there goes my stupid heart failing me again. I think the stupid thing is broken. Maybe if I oil it like the tin man then I will be able to stop being so damn compassionate. Jeez! I can so relate to Holden in the Catcher in the Rye which is the book that I am currently reading. I love it! I can totally connect to the protagonist. He is sarcastic, bitter, and his thought process is totally scattered like mine. lol. Plus I don't doubt that I will eventually have a mental breakdown too. Tee Hee. Anyways I have to go get some shut eye. Nighty night my little poppets!